I dialed the counselor’s phone number into my iPhone. I distinctly remember my thumb hovering over that little green call button. Shaking. For about twelve minutes. Or maybe it was only seven. I don’t know. I knew I needed help. The anxiety. The pornography. The panic. But to ask for help, for whatever reason, was, … Continue reading The Courage To Call
The Day I Heard Jesus Whisper
We had just finished our first worship session. Our youth group was in Sioux Falls, South Dakota for a mission trip and it was now time to break out into our small groups that we would be working with for the week. We were staying in a local high school and the group I had … Continue reading The Day I Heard Jesus Whisper
The Secrets: Revisited
Four years ago, I was attending Western Theological Seminary and taking a class with Chuck DeGroat. One of the assigned readings was Telling Secrets by Frederick Buechner. What I didn’t realize at the time was that this seemingly random book would play a part in transforming my journey. Three graduate schools later (with no degrees … Continue reading The Secrets: Revisited
Hide & Seek: I’m Disappointed.
What do you do with your disappointment? What happens when life takes a turn you never expected? Where do you run when someone lets you down? What do you turn to when your relationship hurts more than it helps? How do you handle not getting the promotion, not being chosen for the investment, not being … Continue reading Hide & Seek: I’m Disappointed.
Jesus. Where are you?
As the Christmas season is now in full swing all around me and as the Advent season is ramping up to the incredible, miraculous and glorious day of Christ’s birth, I’m feeling a little guilty. Actually, I don’t know that guilty is the right word. Perhaps a better word is distant. And maybe the best … Continue reading Jesus. Where are you?
“I Dare You To Trust That I love You: An Inspiring Word From Brennan Manning
I’m not an avid movie watcher. I’m the guy who hasn’t seen most of the classics that everyone and their mother have seen! But last night I watched a movie that changed my life. The movie is called Ragamuffin, and it’s based on the true story of Rich Mullins’ life. Rich Mullins was a Christian … Continue reading “I Dare You To Trust That I love You: An Inspiring Word From Brennan Manning
My name is Matt Mulder and I am a recovering pornaholic.
My name is Matt Mulder and I’m a recovering pornaholic. I wish I could tell you that the temptation goes away. I suppose it does for some people, and that’s really awesome, but it never has for me. It’s amazing to me how you can know something is harmful to you, and the people around … Continue reading My name is Matt Mulder and I am a recovering pornaholic.
I Am With You…Always
I recently received an email from a good friend at 3:40am. It makes me anxious when I receive any kind of personal message at 3:40 in the morning… I guess I always assume the worst. He was writing to let me know one of the most meaningful relationships in his life had come to an … Continue reading I Am With You…Always