I asked her when she first started looking at pornography. She looked up at me with a thoughtful but puzzled glance. “I was in 7th grade.” I knew her story. That’s when the abuse started: physical, emotional, and psychological. “How else did you escape?” I asked. There was some more silence. “Basketball. Fantasy novels. Video … Continue reading Pornography Saved Your Life.
We had just finished our first worship session. Our youth group was in Sioux Falls, South Dakota for a mission trip and it was now time to break out into our small groups that we would be working with for the week. We were staying in a local high school and the group I had … Continue reading The Day I Heard Jesus Whisper
Four years ago, I was attending Western Theological Seminary and taking a class with Chuck DeGroat. One of the assigned readings was Telling Secrets by Frederick Buechner. What I didn’t realize at the time was that this seemingly random book would play a part in transforming my journey. Three graduate schools later (with no degrees … Continue reading The Secrets: Revisited
What do you do with your disappointment? What happens when life takes a turn you never expected? Where do you run when someone lets you down? What do you turn to when your relationship hurts more than it helps? How do you handle not getting the promotion, not being chosen for the investment, not being … Continue reading Hide & Seek: I’m Disappointed.
Two years ago I had the brilliant idea of trying to run three marathons in one year. Off the bat, you’re probably thinking to yourself, “There’s nothing brilliant about that idea.” You are completely right. It was actually a pretty stupid idea, but at the time it sounded like a fun challenge. With the help … Continue reading Numb.
As the Christmas season is now in full swing all around me and as the Advent season is ramping up to the incredible, miraculous and glorious day of Christ’s birth, I’m feeling a little guilty. Actually, I don’t know that guilty is the right word. Perhaps a better word is distant. And maybe the best … Continue reading Jesus. Where are you?
I’m not an avid movie watcher. I’m the guy who hasn’t seen most of the classics that everyone and their mother have seen! But last night I watched a movie that changed my life. The movie is called Ragamuffin, and it’s based on the true story of Rich Mullins’ life. Rich Mullins was a Christian … Continue reading “I Dare You To Trust That I love You: An Inspiring Word From Brennan Manning
“I suspect that it is by entering that deep place inside us where our secrets are kept that we come perhaps closer than we do anywhere else to the One who, whether we realize it or not, is of all our secrets the most telling and the most precious we have to tell” (p. 3). … Continue reading Telling (my) Secrets: A Reflection Inspired By Frederick Buechner
My name is Matt Mulder and I’m a recovering pornaholic. I wish I could tell you that the temptation goes away. I suppose it does for some people, and that’s really awesome, but it never has for me. It’s amazing to me how you can know something is harmful to you, and the people around … Continue reading My name is Matt Mulder and I am a recovering pornaholic.